Ahhhh. My heart aches for you and where you are now. And perhaps counseling can help… if you partner also recognizes that things need to change and values your happiness. And if it can’t? Then at least you did everything in your power to save the relationship, but one person can’t do it alone.
And if it’s any consolation, though there are things about my former life that I miss deeply, my ex is not one of them. The divorce process and aftermath were heart-shatteringly difficult and I cried (all day, every day) for about 8 months solid, but am feeling so much more peace and happiness (in a grounded way, versus a performance for others). Wishing you the best. And if you need an ear, I’m here. ❤